we decide what be.

The constant fear of the darkness may cause the abandonment of some part of ourselves, some intrinsic part that the self departs from it. It means that the more darkness one has or taps into the more integrated with the often labelled bad side of our psyche, but as I like to look at it as the perpetual cycle of being, there can be no light in darkness so we might never work it out to ignite off, yet the opposite may happen as with the shadow erupting amidst the lighting of the day, so it may seem obscure to deny something this connected in nature, maybe even ignorant. The problem lies in the constant self-evoked fear of reaching into the darkness enabling oneself to be seen more clearly. 

As I grow with age I find the interesting effect of life residing in the neglected obscure facet of our being, so why bother creating a hindrance in the continuance of all things that be or about to. If not the curse of the so-called curiosity inherited unto us.

...this idea self-created itself in my head these past two days as it made me resonate with the darkness within, however, I may be ignorant for thinking of the shallow side of this paradox, forgetting the inner turmoil it must have happened to detach from it, can we even reach such stage? Is it even comprehensible to us in our reality of being? I dare not ask or question that of which I know trouble would come, although it can be seen as me running away from every prospect that integrates me into the higher realm of being, so as to see through the veil of badness, and every sensible negative slur we can call it to finally behold the truth of both worlds, both right and wrong as they help feed unto each other, yet our own resistance to this dilemma only complicate things so the mind can never fully be in control or so I come to think.

Amidst the darkness we might never find the light so diving deep into this realm may cause uncalled side effects; as with the right dozage, we might even unlock something we wouldn't have reached in our constant angelic if so means state. how can darkness be in the light becomes an easily fabricated look of the misery of which enlist the continuance of our struggle to fully be, so if shadows can erupt from darkness maybe there is virtue in learning the compatible ways of which would help to tackle such adversity. Taping unto some far-fetched vices in us may cause and fill the thirst for knowledge. As I like to see it all great things contain a bit of madness or some sort of radicality as Aristotle notes. there must be a reason why we find new ways to interpret any valuable information beyond the realm of reach or the kingdom which constitutes both right or wrong, perhaps there is never any reason for the bad if we look deep enough in its roots and the same goes for the good so there perpetual resonance in both, but which takes control that is left to the consciousness and unconsciousness to decide, or so we hope!