between reality and dream: two worlds collide.

 It takes time, will and care but mostly patience to create a connection that lasts a lifetime, This can be done with great care for proportion and how we control our perspective through our journey in life, The same journey can adapt a lot of different shapes and its shape has its own structure and struggle. for it to be something that transcends our current view on life even our most pessimistic ideas on it and how it is all for granted, we come to learn that it makes sense in due time, that only with some drops of patience life can show its meaning. I am a seeker of trouble and worry, my mind can write me off on that. I find pleasure in not knowing many things yet sometimes, as most do we tend to be greedy and seek out more, more trouble, more knowledge,  more adventure and even more pain. all that has a direct role in our lives. all of it comes back to one stated concept; the concept of learning.

I have learned many things in my twenty-three years of life yet I would never brag about the time I spent thinking about what could go wrong, what I could miss, or what I have lost. always The same questions pop up in my train of thought. I am well aware that I would sound to most as delusional, or maybe even arrogant in thinking I have figured out how to live, however, I am more sure and certain that I still haven't drunk for the fountain of knowledge or if I would ever do. The things that seem to get questioned a lot in my life always was my belief, and my ability to surrender to god, and as most do I have found true struggle in that, and adapting to different created mindsets, both from me and other influential people in my life, to which many and most of them are close didn't manage to answer my troubles or it may be that the answer is not there to be found, the real issue comes in wanting to know everything in such short amount to time but as we all know: life doesn't work like that.

has hope towards connecting through many mediums which mostly conceive art, and through this art today marks my finale of The Walking Dead episode. both the notions, first of belief and second for patience have been talked about throughout my watching of the show yet they never cease to enlighten me for more and an insatiable amount of pleasure, all coming to the end in one big jump of time. I can't describe what the show did for me under both stated beliefs as I was watching it I couldn't but cry at the magnitude and the number of thoughts and care spent to the benefit of the show and our enjoyment of watching it through with each new day a different part of mind seem to ignite only by some mundane description or instance in the show, yet it holds the most meaning to me and my journey through life. I feel compelled to transcribe my emotions and feelings into words that may never be seen by none other than me. I am nonetheless in wait for what is to come, as I am sure it won't be the last chance for me to reconnect in any different or deeper way than this.

As I age many shapes tend to reconstruct in my head about my opinions and judgment things yet I believe that true belief never dims or loses its brilliance. To my core, I know I am meant for something more meaningful if only to me yet it is through that the most meaning held for me in any way, shape, or form. there is meaning to be found and I chose to look for it on my own terms, so heed the delusion of knowledge and acknowledge our surrender to a higher form, as for me in my religion means and say it to be :    Allah.